Today I turn 40. It's hard to believe at times. I don't "feel" 40, whatever that means. I don't act 40. I don't look 40. But today I am 40. Sometimes I feel like I should be different. I mean, I like things that others call childish (video games, star wars, YA novels, blanket forts) but I also have an adult life. I work (often times too much), I pay bills, I have debt, I find more gray hairs then I would like to admit, there are lines around my lines, my knee creaks when it rains (which can be a problem since I live in Washington).
I've been asked recently if I'm dreading turning the big 4-0. "You're middle aged now!" Said one (quite annoying) co-worker. Perhaps I am now considered middle aged, but no. I'm not dreading it. While I may not be over the moon at turning 40 I will say that I'm looking forward to seeing what this next phase of life has in store for me. And I think that's a healthy attitude.
I've learned a lot over the last 40 years. Some were horrible things to learn. Some were great. But all in all, these are the experiences that helped shaped the person I have become. And I have to say that I happen to like who I am.
I've learned:
+ Take care of your feet. Trust me, they are more important then you think.
+ Learning how to say no AND actually saying it is one of the most important things anybody could ever learn. NEVER feel bad for saying no.
+ Never forget that you matter too.
+ It doesn't matter if you have a huge circle of friends or if you have one friend. All that matters is that you have people around who let you be you.
+ Remove toxic people as soon as you can and DO NOT feel bad about it.
+ Love is not a game. Please do not pretend otherwise.
+ Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed about.
+ Saying "fuck" is liberating as hell and it's one of the most versatile curse words. Use it more often.
+ Facing even "small" fears is still courageous. Give yourself credit.
+ Don't compare where you are in life to where someone else is. You have two different lives, two different experiences. It's not a race.
+ It's never too late to go back to school or learn a new skill.
+ Embrace your flaws. You are not damaged simply because you have flaws, Everybody does. Accepting them isn't a crime. Using them to excuse bad behavior, is.
+ Say "I love you" to the ones you love. Say it often. There will come a day when they are gone.
+ Live your life. Eat the damn donut. Buy the dress. Go on that trip. Make the memories.
xx Melissa
Love your post, it sounds so positive! You're right about not dreading it, after all age is just a number. And gosh you don't look like 40 AT ALL! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much!
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